Our bodies are pretty amazing. We can run, flip, and temporarily fly and when pushed to the pinnacle of human performance we can perform feats of extraordinary strength and beauty.
Though, just like everything else in this world, our bodies can only handle so much, and they will eventually break either by accident or by neglect.
Take a paper clip and unbend it. Now try to bend it back to its original shape. How did it turn out? You will never be able to bend it back to how it was. If we do not seek help in healing ourselves, we will be like the paper clip, mending the best we can but never really the same. We become used to walking with a slight limp or dealing with back pain and resign ourselves to this is just a part of life. It becomes a deviation from the norm and eventually becomes the norm.
The deviation of our mental health and our lives in general, just like our bodies, usually isn’t all of a sudden. It’s incremental. It’s a series of bad decisions or ignored warning signs that lead to complete disaster.
And while standing in the wreckage we look for something or someone to blame. How could this “unforeseen” tragedy happen?
Who would have thought if you ignore a problem long enough that it could possibly destroy you?
That those around you could suffer from the new norm of silence, anger, and isolation created by subtle deviations over a long period of time.
It’s hard to write this because I am there now. I have accepted the deviations from the norm in my life and though parts of my life seem to run like a well-oiled machine, other parts of my life feel like the Hindenberg burning to the ground, all because I deviated. I allowed small changes to my routine, I allowed small encroachments to boundaries I should have established, I became tired and said, I’ll do it next time. I lied and said, “It will all be okay. I’m okay.”
If you are in the midst of something like this, know you are not alone, and if you are still alive it’s not too late to get back on track. It may not be like it was before but It can still be good. If it’s not clear where you deviated, ask God to show you. Admit you messed up, show yourself some mercy, and correct your course. You may not be okay now, but you can be, especially if you seek Him.
Please reach out and talk to someone if you are in a bad place. It’s never too late.
I hope this song helps. Be on the lookout for another project update soon. It’s Spring so I hope to get back in the shop soon as well as share some more of my novel.
Keep developing yourself
The Latent Man 